He's Got This

So I graduated college yesterday and I am not quite sure what to think. Of course I am still going back for student teaching and that will last until May, nonetheless I am done with school. Done...Finished. A part of me really is not ready. I keep thinking that I am just learning about myself and I am changing so much right now. I want to be confident in who I am and know what I am like before I "go into" the world to do Christ's work. I suppose this is the way God wants it for now. After all, I know that in my weakness He will be made strong. I suppose I have never really felt that weak before, so as not to have had to practice this. But I must admit that now is a time of weakness for me, and that's okay.

Although I am confused about a lot right now, I still know that I am moving to Watts this summer, to do Christ's work. I say this because I don't exactly know what that work will be yet. Certainly I will be teaching in the area, God willing, but other than that, I don't really know what God wants of me in Watts yet. I don't know where I should be going to church (although I love the church I am at now), I don't know what ministries to start, and I don't even really know how to serve this community I will soon be a part of. But it's okay. I know that He knows "what's up" and will show me when the time is right. I just have to stay in the Word and listen for the call and then run.

I am ready to run. I want to run. I recognize that my life here is so short and while I am camped out in this wretched earth awaiting a lifetime with my King, I want to do God's work. Not MY work...HIS!

So I guess I can conclude that
While I don't know who I am...He does
While I don't know where I'm going...He does
While I don't know what I am supposed to do...He does

And when I feel like hiding in a hole, away from the wickedness of humanity, He tells me that it's okay. He's "got this."

It'll be ok :)